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diana F+ with flash package glow in the dark

mummy , can i pretty please have this ? :)

Something for you to know ,

Time passes by so fast. Well i'm just going to stop thinking about my past. I knew better that it was not going to last. All i wished was him to be my very last .

This has been messing with my head for months and i think it's about time i let go. Time for a brand new start , brand new chapter. Letting go doesn't mean i'll forget you , doesn't mean i'll forget all the painful , sweet and bitter memories with you, doesn't mean i'll ever forget everything you told me not to do. This might hurt but it's for the best , for both of us. I want to live a normal life now , enough crying , enough hating myself. I want to go through a day without missing you , i want to go through the night without tears in my eyes , i want to listen to songs and not get upset thinking about you, i want to believe in myself again , i want to love someone as much as i loved you, i want to smile instead of cry when you appear in my thoughts, and i wish we could work this out, but then again i wish not to . I don't want to disappoint you again and again. Somehow , it's time for me to let go.

It's okay to be angry , and never let go.
It only get's harder the more that you know.
When it gets lonely if no one's around,
You know that i'll catch you when you're falling down.

We came together but you left alone,

I know how it feels to walk out on your own.
Maybe someday i will see you again,
You'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend .

Well , i won't lie saying that i won't miss you. Of course i will , obviously i will. I'll miss us , i'll miss you , your lame jokes , your morning voice, your touch and all the laughs and tears we shared. I definitely will , no doubt about it. Having you again might be great , but i know it'll never be the same. I hope you're doing fine , infact i hope you're doing great. I bet someday , somehow , someway , we'll be having that cracked up long phone call crapping about mostly everything again. I know , one day you'll be there again to give me a warm friendly hug. Well, i hope so. Hey baby, I'm on my way to better days , and so are you :')

They like me liddat yo,

The name is Rawr , Mummy Rawr. LMAO !

Aby dah berubah , Sasa dah berubah , Anep dah berubah , Aten dah berubah , semua dah berubah. tapi Mummy masih hiphop. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mess with us , we'll mess you up. GOT THAT ? HAHAHA cause they like me like that you knowww.

Have i found you ?

Life is turning upside down.

Why? Well , tell me , what's going on with the world? People going in and out of other's life , giving out fake promises , messing with people's emotion , making someone feel lower than the ground. Honestly , is that how we want the next generation to be? Is that the kind of people you would want your children to meet? I don't think so. This is all like a chain reaction.

Why want somebody only when he/she is his/her best but not during his/her worst? Why judge somebody just because they don't wear branded clothes and own a blackberry? Why promise something you know you can never keep? Why leave someone that looks up to you? Why leave someone hanging just because you're scared of commitment? Have some heart for God sake's . All this might mess up emotions and some can even cause suicide (well humans these days , dramatic as ever) What good does it bring? If it brings you satisfaction and joy , you should really go die now. Everybody is trying so hard to impress every single person that doesn't even seem to care, and in the end all they get are regrets. And sometimes the most common question will be asked , "what the hell do you want from me?". We can never satisfy every single human being , so how about just stick to them that matters. Don't hurt yourself. As for the heartless creeps , let them do what they want and they'll get everything in return. Karma is a bitch , but you can't do anything , just live with it.

Stand straight , tilt your chin up , shoulders back , eyes look forward , and smile. Easy as that. Smile is the important part , it makes them wonder.

I've seen enough, i've packed my bags and left that cruel world. I'm on my way to better days and so should you. Been hurt more than just enough. It still does sting. But thank you to them♥ that's been here for me through all the shits. You know who you are .

For those who i left behind, fuck you for leaving me when i'm in need. Fuck you for never appreciating me. Fuck you for all the lies and faking. Fuck you for stabbing me in the back. Fuck you for all the fake promises. Fuck you for messing with my emotions. Fuck you for not accepting me the way i am. Fuck you , him , her , them , or who ever. I don't give a shit anymore.

I could really use a wish right now ,

Yeah , it's me again

I'm finally back. It's been a while since i last went online , fuhh. Remember that drastic changes i was talking about ? Yeah , it's not as easy as i thought it would be. A lot more need to be fixed and i hope i can go through this alone. I am now on my own , i think.

I'm starting to think more than i ever did , and honestly it's messing with my emotions , zzz. What a drag , i know right. Life has been bumpier than ever , until i decided for this drastic changes that is. Well , it's not going pretty smooth but heck i'm trying , for God sake's -.- Nobody said it was easy , nobody said it wouldn't hurt. It hurts more than just too much infact.

All that has made me figure out load other stuffs to do. As all of you can see , i've deleted my Facebook and no longer using my MySpace ( i stopped using MySpace since February , heh ) . I'm sticking to only MSN for now. I need to get away from the crowd just so i could go on with this drastic change. Since i got so many freetime , i've been reading a lot of books . Mama supports me in this one though , she's been buying me new books every now and then. Yeay (?) Finally am starting to learn play the guitar , on my own . Thank you Youtube and guitar chords book (Y) Not only that , i'm starting to write and scribble again. Even bought a new journal , hello there new buddy. And i am now officially inlove with Addmaths and accounts. I've been making love with em everynight :B Pretty good start for a change...right ?

Holidays is coming to an end , and surprisingly i'm excited for school . I miss 4E and the crowd in the canteen during recess. I miss almost everything about school. 4 days seems longer than it ever did. *sigh*

I've said enough for now. I just hope everything will go smooth , enough bumpy rides. It's starting to make me feel sick :s