Mixed up

When you don't have what you want, you know exactly what you want and what you need. But once you got it, you suddenly pause and think , is this what you really want ? I'm not so sure either of what i want right now , i don't even know what i need . Everything all mixed up , my emotions all mixed together. What do i get? Fucking mood swings (: Hoorahh. Currently grounded , can't go out and here i am in my room doing nothing but writing this blog. How interesting (: I'm bored , toodles <3

Unplanned ,

Yesterday was hell. Family problems getting bigger and bigger. D left me hanging, didn't talk to Syafiq that much, barely texted anyone and went out with no money at all :) I was a freaking mess. But then, Weyna came to Shah Alam and brightened my day , she was there in front of my house to give me hugs and i swear i was about to cry. We went to Pelita , UNPLANNED (: Then hanged out there with her cousin and a friend of her cousin. He is hilarious , i could barely drink properly when he starts talking -.- I put my phone aside for a day, couldn't handle with any more problems. Then my son named Rahman came with 3 other hooligans (: Afiq , Ija and Omar. Hoyeah , Afiq as always would poke me so i would say words that would make him laugh. Ija was bugging the shit out of me and Rahman was just being Rahman , pfth -.- Waited for another 2 monkeys for hours wasn't that worth it though -.- Megat and Mush , thanks alot . My day was slightly better cause i got to meet Weyna , but the others turned out like shit. Everything was a mess , a fucking mess -.- Thanks Weyna , Zakwan and Rahman for being concerned. I love you (: Today ? It just started , let's hope nothing gets worst today , just hope for a better day . *sigh* I'm hungry , my head are still full of thoughts and i can't smile , damn it ! Off to play guitar hero , choww <3

Sunshine (:

Sorry ladies , he's my eye candy right now 8] Who's he ? Oh oh , the name is Syafiq Megat , also known as Megs , but i call him Megster. *winkwink* Why is this blog specially for him ? Because it's my blog and i want to, not only that, because he's a loser and he has this weird interest which is making me blush. I told you he's a loser :) But who cares, he still means alot. I would like to say thanks to Atilia baby and Khairil , if it wasn't for them , i wouldn't even know he exist :P We've been texting and we've been sharing laughs and thoughts, hope to meet him up soon, before he leaves that is. Pretty please? :( Every morning , he'll be the first person i'll text , i have no idea why , i guess he's just addictive * i know yr blushing right now sweets ;p * OH OH , and he'll know the exact words to say when i'm feeling down. He knows the exact words to make a girl feel so proud :) That's his specialty, making me smile all through the day. He's my Sunshine , hoyeah he is , be jealous girls , be verryyyy jealous ;p He said he hoped that he made my life better like how i made his , and he also said i made him feel more secure bout his self. And grr till now i don't get what means , can anyone pretty please explain ? Grr . We've known each other less then a month , but i can talk to him as if i've known him all my life. How great can he be ? :D I love you handsome *winkwink* I'll seriously miss you when you're gone :(
Oh and look what he said ,

Syafiq says:
well, i think you're so lame when you say you're cute to yourself. but at the same time i can't help but wanna bite you and melt inside. true story. (:

That's all i can say about him , i wouldn't want any one of you stealing him away , shooh shooh ;p

Hoyeah ,

Today ? Normal yet fun :) And again , mama and papa are away till Monday , hoyeahhhh :D They've been leaving the house to us often this month *keningkening* Thanks mama papa , i loooove youuuu <3

At 2pm , headed to KLCC . With dearest brother Syamil and cousin Ila :) We sang and laughed in the car , was kinda silly though . Then arrived around 3 something, ran all the way from the fucking crowded convention center , damn it , just to rush and meet Fiqa :D Hoyeah , i miss her ! i love you wifey :) Minutes after , Ashraf called and said he's here. So yeah , headed to Starbucks and met Ejay on the way , ahah :) Bought our frap , headed back to entrance and met up Danial and Atilia baby boo :) Had the chance to share ciggs and laughs with them , and i had to go. Said goodbye and hugs kisses .

I arrived home and called Akmal , ask him to come to Shah Alam and asked him to pick up Atilia first at Pavi :) And so he agreed ONLY IF i pay for the petrol and tol -.- How mean right ? But yeah whatever , haha . I waited , then i called Atilia and she said she's heading to Akmal now and she's with Zakwan , ahah :) Arounf 9 something , they arrived , i was excited though :D So we hanged out , laughed and nipple twist , hoyeah 8] At 10.45 we headed to McD , i had to buy them food -.- We ate and did silly things with fries and ketchup. After the meal headed to the car. We took the long way home , through Section 12 , babi jauh lah sial , haha . Then infront of my house , we just chilled in the car. I was moody for certain reasons , Zakwan was being kinky , Rara was worrying about her finger , Atilia and Akmal with their own thing at the front seat . We all talked and laughed our ass off , till it was time for them to go back. ZAKWAN , sweater you i punya skrng , teheeee :) And oh Atilia , Akmal , Rara , thanks for coming :) i loooove you <3 Akmaaaal , nnt i tarik tarik rambut you and cubit you lagi okay ? I biar berkesan sikit ;p Heee .

Twisted ,

I've watched twilight , well yeah , FINALLY . Har har. Edward Cullen is extremely hot , but i hate the fact that every girl on earth is going gaga over him. But who cares , he's fucking hot 8] *bak kata Syafiq Megat , this smiley is like a pervert , so what if i am ? haha * On wednesday , i spent the whole day with Aten , yes i do love her , fuck off bitch :) Went to skatepark with her, a freaky guard asked for my number using this very disgusting words. Yeah felt like just slapping him in the face , such perv -.- Then met Anep, Boy, Aliph and Syed at Al-Rafi . Then Fifi came along with Akmal the big guy. I really do mean BIG GUY , he's hands are huge :O And he says back in Qatar , he's the smallest player in his rugby team. Damn it , i don't wanna imagine how big is the biggest ;s Fifi went back early with Akmal , so i spent more time with them :) Took lots of pictures and went back at 6 , rushed home with Aten, get ready and waited for Anep and Boy. Yeah , went to ou with them . I watched Twilight with cousins and sisters, Aten was walking around OU with the boys . Then when the movie was over , went to Rasta with Bedey, Ija , Udang, Afiq, Mek , Anep , Boy and Aten. Well the others came when i was in the movies. I know , how sweet of them =') hahaha . Shisha and took pictures till 3 AM , then went back home . REALLY tired , but still end up sleeping at 7.30am. Fuck , it was exhausting .

Then later on thursday, woke up at 11.30am , yeah 4 hours of sleep is NOT enough. Gahh . Got ready and went to Shela's house , on the way dropped of Aten home :) Went all the way to Bangi , can't wait to see Weyna , hell yeah :) Arrived there and was vry happy to see Shela welcoming me at the front door. Went up stairs and so Virginie , Amoi , and Lily. Then i heard someone shouting my name from the guest room , and wowwie it was Azam and his friends. I didn't know most of his friends except for Zain though. When i was about to enter Shela's room, Azam asked " kenal Ben tak ? " i was like err which ben . And one of his friends was already giggling , looks like Ewan was one of Ben's friends , damn it -.- I just ignored and covered up my face then ran to Shela's room. I opened the door and there jumped Weyna right infront of my eyes , i could tell she was happy , and so was i . There in there room was Kroll and Rose. I totally ignored them, yeah my bad , sorry ;s But then me and Kroll talked it out , now everything's fine , i love you kroll :) Took lots and lots of pictures , i mean ALOT . Ahah , had fun though , missed all of them when i went back :(

That was pretty much what i did this week , i mean the only INTERESTING stuffs i did when my parents were away , lol -.- I know , how boring right ? Hmm , life's confusing and hurting me way deep down inside. Friends keep telling me that guy's aren't everything , they say they'll always be there for me. I know they will , i agree with them. But for the time being, i just need this heart to be mended. It just hurts to know that every guy that comes to offer me some love to me , ends up treating me like a toy. As if i don't have feelings at all. Well screw you, i just need the right one , hmm . Other then that , i do love my friends , i really do . Thanks for always being there for me , you know who you are. I love you :)

I think that's all i have to say , do drop by at my profile to comment my pictures ayte :) Toodles <3