A feeling i can't deny

Yeah these are half of them. That's Khalis , Khairul , Irfan and Aan. The rest would be Anep , Zuhairy , Ajiem and Fazrul. Who are they? They're my classmates, the only reason i love being in class. Despite the annoying teachers. Khalis is one hell of a cheerful boy, he never stops singing. He's like the jukebox in class. Annoys almost everyone in class but yet such a great friend. Khairul , Irfan and Aan just loves to crack up jokes. Say one word and they can elaborate in to stupid jokes. Zuhairy and Anep are like partners in crime. They go everywhere together , sounds gay but hey they both have lovely girlfriends. And both of them are the one's that never really stress out plus both of them loves sleeping in class, especially during BM haha. Ajiem and Fazrul loves to spend time with the phone and watch band videos on youtube. But heck, they can be very fun once you actually talk to them. Btw, Ajiem is a so called daddy to me haha. These boys definitely know how to have fun and i love em to bits :)

The two girls up here would be Farah and Ecah. These two are not even a quarter of the rest. The rest would be Maisha , Balqis , Shafiqah , Amirah , Afini and Idzaty. Woah do these girls love gossip. Maisha is like my partner in class , we talk about almost anything. So is Farah and Ecah. We can make fun out of anything. Sing out loud , laugh like no one's watching , and check out any boy that passes by haha. They're full of fun. Balqis , Shafiqah , Amirah , Afini and Idzaty are like the gossip girls in class. Loads of gossips i tell you. Sit down for 5 minutes and you know about half of the school . They are freaking loud , they make the class look like a night club. Haha but they really do know how to make a girl laugh. I love each and everyone of them :)

This feeling i have for them , i can never deny. They really do hold an important role to me. One day i was crying my ass off over some stupid matter, each and everyone of them had their own way to make me feel better. There was Khalis wiping off my tears , Maisha rubbing my back , Ecah and Farah holding my hands, Anep and Zuhairy making me think of that matter the other way around , and the rest was just helping me go through it. Somehow, they mean more than just too much. And this one time , it was Sejarah , i was skipping class as always, with the common people who always does , Zuhairy Anep Khalis and Khairul. And suddenly i saw the whole class loitering around the building. The best part was the teacher is in class but then there was none in it. Haha we are some class. Yeah , we are 4 Efisyien 2010 , no teacher can ever stand us. Bottom line , they make my day in school worth being there :)

Popcorns and coke,

From left : FACE , BA , Murdock , Hannibal

Well , i watched A team last night with my family. There was 16 of us , damn it. The movie was nice , i laughed all the way. Oh and Face is so ... nyummy (?) hahaha . We watched it at Tropicana Mall. Seems like that's a new favourite spot for Mama to watch a movie. It's been twice this week we watched a movie there. I don't really mind, cause yeah i get to meet Madd each time i head there, tehee.

Half an hour after the show started , i headed to the toilet and Madd was infront of the toilet. So i invited him to go for a smoke. He brought his friend along. I can't really recall the name. Sorryyyy haha. But it was a fun 15 minutes though. I'm heading there again tonight or maybe tomorrow. Toy Story 3D yo . Me liiiike.

This that this that , nothing much happened. Pretty dull , but what the heck. All i could think about right now is school. Damn it i can't wait. I can't imagine how much i would miss school once i finish SPM *sigh

I can't wait through everything ,

I can't help but just laugh reading back all the post since 2008. I was so .. clueless. Yeah , that's the word i was looking for. Clueless. Everything to me back then seemed so wrong. It's like to me , nothing could ever turn out better. I didn't even try to make myself feel better. All i did was sit alone and get all emoshits. And all i ever wrote was how depressed i was. Not that i don't anymore , but back then i elaborate maybe a lil bit just too much.

Think back, the way you think is the key to happiness. It all depends on you. Not the way people treat you , think about you , judge you or even the way they accept you. And as you grow up , you're thoughts expand. Well not all of us that is, some thoughts just simply shrink. Sad, i know.

Okay sure, what people think of you and how they treat you may effect your thoughts and emotions. But look, if someone treats you like you're some piece of crap, do you prove to that person that you are some piece of crap? No. That is just going to make people take advantage, which would suck even more. So stop sucking your own life. Happy thoughts. Yeah, that would be a good start. Try it.

I didn't say this was easy. Hell no it ain't. What is easy in life? It gets tougher as you grow up. You don't walk around and have no problem at all. Everyone has problems , no doubt about that. And the only one who can solve it is yourself. No one else but you. Sitting down and watch everything collapse isn't a way to solve anything by the time situation gets tougher. I repeat, THAT IS NOT THE WAY. Make your life worth living. Stop wasting it by feeling so crappy and hating yourself. If you do , then you're not going anywhere. You'll be stuck. And that pretty much sucks. Big time!

Me? I didn't say i was on the right track. I'm pretty much messed up, but i also didn't say that i wasn't trying. Trust me, i haven't tried doing anything as hard as i'm trying now. Advices and insults are two different things. Insults are painful. But advices , are medicine to your soul. As bitter as it is , you still have to swallow it. Bit by bit , it'll make a difference. And again , it all depends on you whether to take it or leave it. Take note : Why the hell should you care about someone who doesn't even give a shit about you? Keep that in mind and you'll be fine. I hope.

Long lost son ,

It has been a while since i last talked to this son of mine. Yes , i'm talking about Rahman. Lol, he disappeared since he continued studies. Anyways, we had a talk just now and it was nice. He told me to be proud of this :

aman says:

eh nnti jmpa lahh

rindu you do

bangga sikit haha

got to go , later mummy !

And yes , he still does call me mummy. Aww :')

Smell the coffee ,

Hello world :)

Woke up pretty late today. Duhh, i was on the phone with Afiq till 6am , zzz . He made me feel better somehow. Although he kept making creepy voices and saying there's something at the corner of my room and under my bed. Sheeeeesh! But yeah , he really does know how to cheer me up :)

So i was told by the boys he screwed up again , and this time he pretty muched ticked off everyone. They said he has gone way too far. What the hell is wrong with you, fool ? Your actions has been unbelievably stupid. All i can say is , goodluck mending back the pieces you broke.

I just ate spicy chicken mcdeluxe and pineapple passion mcflurry , add on some fries and shake. Yes , i eat a lot and i don't give a fuck :) And holly shit i am indeed full . I wanna laze around and watch Life Unexpected for hours till my butt cramp