Weirdo ,

Hello (: I haven't update for a long time , sue me for that , boo hoo. Well , i seem to see more then just internet in life. Woah :O So not me , i knoww. But yeah , i've been making myself busy so that i won't have to think about all the assholes and rotten creeps out there (:

I did nothing but just eat and eat and eat today . Call me fat , but i don't seem to care. Bahaha. Last night was too gay , and i hope tonight will be another night full of laughs. I need all this stress out of me (: I've got a weird friend, say hello to my new friend Asyraf. Yes he is so weird that i get goosebumps each time he speaks. See how weird he is :|

asyrf . says:
youu kn resah nak PMR
asyrf . says:
hahahahahha
asyrf . says:
tak tengok tv ?
Icky , says:
haha babi , i taknak pikir pasal pmr for this 2 weeks lah ass !
Icky , says:
shut upp -.-
Icky , says:
tv yg tengok i skrng ni
Icky , says:
haha
Icky , says:
my baby cousin nak tengok ben10 , mmg tak lah i tengok kan -_-
asyrf . says:
haha ,
asyrf . says:
ben 10 ?
asyrf . says:
best laa cerita tu sial .
asyrf . says:
dier boleh tukar tukar ,
asyrf . says:
memang tak tengok ah ,
asyrf . says:
hahahahaha
Icky , says:
sometimes i wonder are you seriously 18
Icky , says:
hahha
asyrf . says:
hahahahahahhaha ,
asyrf . says:
i am !
asyrf . says:
TENGOK IC LAA SIAL
asyrf . says:
hahahahahaha
Icky , says:
nah , i think yr a 10 year old stuck in a 18 year old body
Icky , says:
Lol , i pitty you boy
asyrf . says:
hahaha ,
asyrf . says:
yeah ,
asyrf . says:
i wish i was 17 again ,
asyrf . says:
pfft ,
asyrf . says:
hahahahahaha
asyrf . says:
bajet zac efron lak ,
Icky , says:
takyah nak perasan sangat ah kan ;p
Icky , says:
imma call you capcap
Icky , says:
haha
Icky , says:
jangan tanya asal
Icky , says:
suka hati aku ah nak panggil apa ;p
Icky , says:
i am annoying , live with it (:
asyrf . says:
hahahahahahaha
asyrf . says:
nak panggil i capcap ?
asyrf . says:
i panggil youu ,
asyrf . says:
crapcrap ,
asyrf . says:
okay /
asyrf . says:
?
asyrf . says:
hahahahaha
Icky , says:
fakyu asshole

He is one hell of a weirdo , but he cracks me up. Bodoh , macam dah kenal 10 tahun , padehal tak sampai seminggu -_- Don't be too proud , i'm not your number one fan , yet :) HAHAHAHA

Friend ,

I had a friend , at least i thought she was a friend. But she showed her true colors in the end. I've seen her random acts alot , what she did to my other friends and they always tell me to stay away from her and don't trust her. But all i could say was " As long as she didn't do anything wrong to me , why should i stay away? She's my friend , and i love her ". Right at this very moment, i seem to regret everything i used to say about her, i regret pushing away everything people told me about her, i regret ever trusting her. She convinced me but then she lied, she made me trust her but then she stabbed me in the back, she made me believe her but then she made me have all these regrets. Now i realize i'm better off without her , but it hurts me a lot to lose someone i used to trust.

Save a life

What a beautiful morning. The clocks ticking , and time is wasting. I'm doing nothing, just sitting here blogging. trying to figure out everything, everything that actually seems to be nothing. Life can be very complicating, sometimes even annoying. You just keep thinking, but in the end you get nothing :) Okay, i have no idea what i was saying, i guess i should really stop crapping. Mother woke me up at 8, but i continued my sleep till 10. Got nothing to do , so brushed my teeth and washed my face. Went to the kitchen and got my mushroom soup done with 2 pieces of toast. Went upstairs to the balcony for a cigarette , and grabbed the remote. Today seems boring. Cause tomorrow seems to be an adventure. How childish can they be, as if cheating is suuuuch a crime, pfth. I got one tip , GET A LIFE bitch. Each time i stand up, something keeps pushing me back to the ground. Lifeless people , that's right. What can i do now? Keep on standing and stay strong (?) Oh , how that sounds so easy, but not exactly. Problems coming to me like a river. It never stops flowing. And i definitely need a life jacket. Watch out people, the world war is coming near, cause nobody seems to understand peace. That's all for now .

Inhale

Where did i go wrong this time? Friends that i thought would stay longer , already left without a single goodbye. Leaving me clueless , leaving me asking myself why. And i thought if i have to go through this any longer, i think i might end up going crazy. But hey, i got CiyaaEelaHaziqEpulWeynaTyka♥ to help me stand up. Dont ever fall again, that's what i keep telling myself, they've been lifting my spirits up. Thank god (: Well , yeah , KARMA BABYY ! What goes around comes around. I mess with someone's life only if she / he mess with me. I don't come bugging or talking shit about people that barely exist in my life, unlike someone , kau terasa lebih pahal ? Diam sudah (: I've talked shit , and i get back shit, correction , way more shit anyone can ever wish for. And i finally give up. Fullstop here, if i talk bad about her, you wanna go around and say shits, well now i'm friends with her. Happy? So just shut your pile hole (: Please and thank you. Go ahead and act bitchy, cause seriously you're too fake to handle. Say anything you want about me, but i don't act like a plastic, hehe. Thanks for making me stronger to all you haters out there. Peace out, icky♥

Spell it for me ,

Life has been a chaos , but hey what's life without chaos :) I'm still breathing , and yeah thank god (!) I lost my money yesterday , alot of it. But i intend to shut up about it, not even bother to tell my parents. You know what, i dont really have the mood to blog right now. See ya.

Consideration ,

Exams in 3 weeks or less, and i still got 8 subjects and loads of chapters to review. Damn it. I'll be away again. toodles <3

Can you keep up

Okaaaaaay i woke up today and found out i'm not goin back to Seremban after all :) Bahaha , so i continued snoozing till Eesya had to wake me up -.- While i was watching tv , Megat called *keningkening* Random gila babi. And so..

Megat : yo budak kecik , wassap berasap man
Icky : yo budak besar , you're still so very lame.
Megat : Aww i miss you too , *laughs*
Icky : Eh jangan nak perasan sangat ah kan, who's calling who ? aww i know you miss me , alolo
Megat : Okay shut up, dah bye

He actually hung up , for real. I guess he was expecting me to call back , too bad i fell asleep balik HAHA. So then he called back ..

Icky : apaaa ? *suara mengantuk*
Megat : Cibai you lah sohai , kau boleh tidur aku merajuk
Icky : boleh je , nyenyak doh *laughs*
Megat : Eff you mofo
Icky : i love you too

Then he was pissed , he said stuffs i barely understood. I told him about inhale and exhale , and so he tried. Goodboy(: haha. So yeah , he called to inform about A'an's suprise party. Again, a pool party , woot woot. I am glad it is AFTER midterms.

Icky : I've got a midterm to think about , why screw my head about HIS party. Go call Nasha , i bet she has brilliant ideas
Megat : You know i hate her , and chill you'll do fine for the exam. I got yr back , aren't i sweet ?
Icky : no , when you said you got my back , you actually meant " i'll be ready to laugh at you when you cry about yr bad grades " eff you asshole
Megat : Hey , dont blame me for being too cool.
Icky : i wanna puke , BYE
Megat : eh jappp ! answer one question only cann a ? pwetty pwease
Icky : Apa diaaaaa ?
Megat : You remember that skinnies Hannah gave me ?
Icky : yeah what about that up tight skinnies ?
Megat : do you think i'll look fat if i wear it for the BBQ ?
Icky : HAHA you gay ass mofo , stand infront of a mirror and go figure Einstein.
Megat : Fuck you , how ever can A'an stand you
Icky : cause i'm way cooler than you can ever be
Megat : sheeeeeesh , BYE
Icky : *Laughs* BYEEEEEEEE GAY

I love you too , Sheikh Megat (:

So my day was pretty boring , yada yada yada. I have to admit , Z really did dig the hole bigger. But heck, i guess i'm the fool in this case. Fuck, i love you still, Z )':

Despite the fact

Clocks ticking and i lost count how many times i yawned. Tomorrow off to Seremban, yikes more weddings and unknown relatives again. Daaaamn -.- I decided to write a list of things i want and want to do.

1. to die for gladiators
2. 8 A's for pmr
3. respectful friends
4. spend a day without caring about people and just play guitar heroes
5. waste time taking pictures on the rooftop
6. spend a day playing in the rain with Aten
7. sleepovers with Weyna
8. Laughing with Tyka
9. Crapping with Atilia
10. Hug Anith till she turns blue
    
11. Meet Fiqa , Virginie and Shela
12. Shop till i drop again in Bandung
13. Roadtrip with pals , no parents allowed.
14. Genting with loved ones
15. PD trip for new year.
16. Spend a whole day in the beach without getting sunburns
17. Learn how to play guitar
18. Start writing and drawing again
19. Find my inspiration for number 17 again
20. Scribble t-shirts some more
21. Bake cupcakes , cookies and cakes.
22. MONEY MONEY MONEY
23. Go merempit with Syakir
    
24. odd jobs after pmr :)
25. Dresses and tank tops , hoyeah
26. Write songs again
27. Text Syafiq Megat *sobs
28. spend a day with haziq, hee
29. Meet Ajeem in KLCC again.
30. Get Audi's awesome sarcasm
31. Figure out how to earn number 28
32. Make Raes wait for four hours again HAHA
33. Smoke ciggs with Azam, Ewan, Esfan and Afiq again
34. Over night with Zakwan and Eddie again

okay dah penat dah , bye .

Keep it ,

It's a little too late for you to come back

You blew it when you had me back then. I have to admit i'll miss it when you call me and tell me yr infront of my house. I have to admit i keep thinking of you when i see your jersey that you gave me or anyone else wearing the exact one. I have to admit it's you that's on my mind when i see that same kind of jersey i gave you. I have to admit i miss kissing you under the tree. I have to admit i miss those phone calls i had with you and how you kept saying how much i mean to you. But sadly, you never showed enough. You proved nothing to me, you only prove that you're just another asshole who sweet talks to every girl he gets. You're so typical. But it's too late now, baby. I'm so far away for you to catch up. It's too late for you to call me and say how you're sorry and asking for me back. It's definitely too late for you to come back !

Note for you

Dear friends, just so you know, i am not that stupid. Don't talk about something you don't want me to know infront of me. Cause obviously, i hate it. A 3 year plus friendship should make you understand that well enough. You're not only fooling me, but also yourself. You're so gullable believing that i don't know a thing. Well, in your face cause to me you're the one who's stupid in this case. Take note : What goes around comes around baby, it's called karma.

Look up

I must say that today was a wet day for me. Woke up at 10 , by Epul's wake up call , thanks dato' i appreciate it so much -.- Then i slept again till 11 something , and woke Shidi up. Then continued snoozing, then Ayong called, already making me laugh till i almost fell of the bed, i repeat , almost (!) Thank god , i didn't *geeky smile* So i decided to just get up, and brushed my teeth. I felt hungry, went downstairs and there was nasi goreng. Watched tv , till 12.30. Siap siap , then off to Permata. Swimming with them, got wet and then Sobri picked me up at Noodle Station and sent me to Nina's waterbash sweet 15. Got wet, again. Anep, Alep, Mek, Haqim, Achik, Faris, Lisa, Lowkey, Izzat ( a new friend ), Nick, Ema , Dee , Laila, Fatin, Fiera, and Thira was there. Then Fir came , i told him stories, as always lah kan. Then i saw Rahman and Sasa going down the hill lying down on a skate board. Crack heads -_-' It made me laugh though, then i got a scar on my finger thanks to Izzat, but i burned his bulu kaki for payback ;p Bahaha. Then went home and here i am onlining like a there's nothing else in this world. Just me , my laptop , chilly cold room and my bed. Niiiice, phone ketepi jap eh , i need some youtube and blogspot (:

Syakir finally admit his my one and only rempit , and yes he officially pronounced me as his one and only minah rempit. He's a newbie , so i have to teach him , ALOT :) hahaha. We're crapping in msn and yes i just have to laugh about this. Thanks to Rahman for listening to what i really wanted to let out for a long time. He's always the right ears for me to spill everything, yeap that's my son alright :) He still calls me mummy , yikes (!)

It's hard when you really need someone you can count on when all the pressure around you is just pushing you down to the ground and everyone around you is acting crappy, but the only people you can count on is so far away and you talk to them once a week only. It's really sad and it hurts real bad. I need them here and now, a s a p. I love you atentykaweynafiqatilia♥ Life has been a bitch. I have been a nerd, but a rebel at the same time, well less rebelious i think. Yes, it is the new me, hard to cope with but heck i have to live with it, cause it's me. Double duhh. Okay , i wanna nudge Haziq now , enough recording lah b, it's US time now , bahaha toodles♥