Look up high ,

It's a beautiful day, i'll be okay now that you're not away. Yesterday was a terrible day , now that you're here i'm okay. Cause you don't know how much i need you please don't go. You're so wonderful , this i swear , this i know. You oh you , every single thing you do, i'm so proud of you. When you do the things you do , that's so you. So thanks for your help , you shine so bright. You are the star that's in my sky, i am yours and you are mine♥ Every single thing you do, i'm so proud of you. That's so you.

The rocket summer - that's so you

The words are deep and yet so meaningful. It's not like any other gibberish songs. And i dedicate this so someone , someone like you , E♥

Liar

Please try to say more carefully that you no longer need me.
I can't seem to believe that you ever cared for me .

Take a hike ,

Ayuni wrote something in her journal that made me and Mush amazed and silent. It was something so true that made us think further. Don't you see how we seem to dress to impress , and style up yourself so that all eyes are on you ? You intend to lie just so people would notice you and fake a scene so that people could actually see you. How pathetic , don't you think ? Now doesn't that sound familiar peeps , hell yeah. Okay , just a try , put on your basic jeans and tshirt , see if people would still like you that way. And for once , not lie to save your own ass might also be good for people around you. Other people gets the blame for your own bloody act. Feel like a hero now ? You're going no where with what you're doing. No step forward , just a thousand steps backward , and where do you end up ? So near with the crowd yet so far from true friends. I'm not sure you ever heard of it , cause as far as i know you got none .

Excuse me ,

Just a message for you Psycho , Love can not be forced and SHOULD NEVER be rushed. You say you lived for 19 years , and now you're acting like you were born yesterday. Seriously , get a life and start blaming yourself.

Scratch

"something are better left unsaid and unkept , some are just meant to be broken "

kan Ayuni ? :)

Synchronize time

All this while i've been complaining , but who am i to blame. I got no rights to state who's right or wrong. Friends come and go , get use to it. Backstabing , betraying and cheating is the common disease these days , and it's contagious , beware (!) But somehow we sometimes don't realize what we say or do when we feel the blood rushing through our veins and all you ever feel like doing is scream so loud till you lose your voice. Yes , there are several types of bitches and A-holes that can really get on your nerve , and they are the best item to yell at. But a friend can never be blame if you yourself made them mad with or without realizing it. Face it , this is life. Stop blaming and start understanding. Don't mind me if you think i'm talking crap. Toodles

Sincerely,
Icky♥

Look up and down ,

We don't always get what we want and we don't always get what we need. Some words may hurt and some words may sting. But what's worst than a lie ? Do you prefer being with someone who's not only lying to himself but also to you ? Do you feel great finding out the love of your life is actually not that inlove with you ? I know i wouldn't. It's best if we know the truth although how bad it may sting you. So ladies and gentleman , i've done this same mistake more than a gazillion times and i don't think i should be that self centered. We can't blame the other person for saying that he / she doesn't love us. Love is something that can't be forced. The right one will come , maybe not today , not tomorrow nor the next day , but it will still come somehow someway. That's life and life's a bitch , we just have to accept it the way it is. Don't blame 'Big Bang' for happening. We're located somewhere in Milky Way, and somewhere else around us will be our lifetime partner. I don't know , neither do you. All we have to do is just wait , my pal :)

Going up

Let's fly hiiiiigh up ! :)

2 days has passed and 4 more days to go. Trials has been a massive headache. Thank god i could answer my maths paper smoothly , not that smooth but literally. I could swear i felt like sleeping through out all the extra time i had but i couldn't , cause i felt like rechecking the papers. Lucky me i found several mistakes and i was lucky enough to redo everything. Yeay me. The clock ticking seemed pretty loud , maybe cause i couldn't wait till this freaking trials is over. Can't imagine when PMR is dead and gone, wait maybe i can... yeah i can see me running around and screaming 'im free!' all over again. Can i please have a time machine ?

Fiction

Life is just a puzzle you need to solve on your own. Think of it as a game, play it like a competition. Compete to be the best of the best , not the best out of the worst. Being on top isn't always all that, it's never that interesting at all. Nerve wrecking and heart breaking moments i've been through them all, at a moment it hurts but then i'll take it as a missing piece of this unsolved puzzle. Ecstatic and heart warming moments i cherish every single second, and it's definitely one of the missing pieces. Trust me , honesty is the best policy , it was proven right by my naked eye. Highschool is a nervous breakdown stage. You'll end up having all these mixed up emotions you can never imagine having, but yet in the end family and friends will always be the one you'll turn to♥

Bitch on the role ,

Highlight of the week : i finally met my SabyBabyyy (:

Yeah , after not getting to meet her during cheercomp and some other tries , i finally met her. I went to her superawesomesweet17th (: It was great , the food was the best , and her family was friendly. I dragged Faris and Azra along with me , i was suddenly shy to go. But i met Amal , Aiman , Hadi , Afiq , and some other people. I also met Man and Anep again , sheesh i miss them , a hell lot actually. Anyways , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABREEENAAAA <3

Life has been great , just smooth and steady perhaps , although there were several bumps i had to go through. Whatever , i'm still standing , yeay me. My daily partner are now exercise books , yeah Maths , Sejarah , Agama , Geo and Science , i liiiike , NOT haha. Trials is just 4 days away and yet i'm still not ready, DIE DIE DIE (!) I've got back on track with people i really need, and those who are not that important , you may go. Why would i need these assholes spoiling my mood everyday ? I love being me and i love them who are around me now. I don't need anyone else but them. I moved to the front of the class so no more texting during Sejarah , boo hoo :(
It was nice to spend time with Azra for 3 days , seriously i really want to take care of her, but someone keeps getting in the way, wonder who that is :) At 4++am last night i called Bo , just to see how's E doing , and suddenly he said " eh dia carik you tadi , dia mintak number you kt i " I was like "oh skrng baru nak carik lah , tukar number bukan reti nak bgtau , dah sebulan baru lah nak carik , terbaiiiik " then Bo membebel tah apa tah , and he asked me to call E. And so i did. He was suprised and he wanted to see me , and so Raff drived me and Azra to 7E to buy Maggi and we waited for E for several minutes and he arrived. He met Raff , tehee. Haprik and Boy was also with him , they were drunk. Stupid drunk monkeys. I'm glad E came back after all this while i've been waiting. I love you , thats what he whispered in to my ears (: woot , i'm so going to keep you.

This section is for this certain someone. Dear bitch, you have been getting on my nerves and i've been too nice with you. Don't screw this up or else you'll regret you ever were in Shah Alam. Fuck all your so called goody goody two shoes words , cause you're a selfish stuck up wanna be biatch. I'm tired of people coming to me talking about you and asking stuffs cause they think i'm you're freaking bestfriend , pfth not even close 'buddy' . Aku kesian kat kau , paham tak ? Aku kasi muka , kau pijak kepala. Macam pukimak tau tak perangai tu. You and you're shitty attitude can get the hell out of Shah Alam and take your dad with you. He's nothing but a stuck up too.

Sincerely,
Icky♥