Facts with a heavy heart to be told

"You'd kiss me on the forehead before class. You'd give me morning hugs , just how i like it. You'd text me in class although you're class is just next to mine. You'd smile and wink at me everytime you pass by. You'd humor me in anyways just so i would smile again. You'd make fights turn out in to a joke. You'd laugh at me when i do something silly. You'd wipe up any mess on my face. You'd cheer me up when i'm having a bad day. You'd be there by my side when i'm feeling lonely. You've been the greatest , but sadly i destroyed each and every piece of our effort and love. It's hard for me to let go , so don't you dare ask me to move on, letting go was hard enough. Although i don't wanna say it , but i guess i have to accept that there's no longer me and you , farewell"

And there you have it , a hint for you. That's a hint to tell you what happened today, haha go figure (: If you don't get it , oh well then too bad for you, if you think you deserve to know, go ahead, ask me. I'll decide wether you deserve or you don't , har har. Yeah , it wasn't that kind of a happy day for me. I went through shits today, not to mention loads of tears. And i'm fucking sorry cause i couldn't make it to hockey. I wanted to , but i was forced by some people not to go, due to my obviously fucked up situation. Thanks for understanding♥

Yes i do have to thank Sabb Anis Aweis Hannah Nida Nad Maisha Teha Wan Byd Shamil Azam Shauqie Zawir and Azree for all the dasupport and spirit lifting. I needed it , a lot . Not that i'm saying it's not enough , but the thing is i'm still weak. I can't help myself if i go up to him and talk to him. Yes i have to show my ego at this kind of time , so i shall try my very best. Thanks oh so very much. It means a lot to me , and i feel so much welcomed to this new school :')

Okay enough sad moments , enough sappy sad love stories , let's hit the showers , haha toodles♥

Were you just tripping ?

I finally got my Snickers Blendid , i am currently satisfied (: Yeay for me , and kudos to Papa and Mama♥

I am back to being single , and let me be the only one who knows what's going on. I'll tell you if i feel like it, but i don't think i have to :-) All i know is they're still here for me , they're not going anywhere. I just did this " How well do you know Icky Fadzil ? " quiz. The results turned out pretty funny. Taib turned out to be the only one who knows what i do when i'm really down , for now lah kan. Who ever else gets it right , you so do not suck har har. Then suddenly ramai nak buat jugak , sibuk shuhh shuhh ! Haha lol :-) Today i went to Wondermilk and bought only 6 cupcakes , sorry people but you will have to share tomorrow. Yes , i bought for them at school , and yes tomorrow is Monday which means holidays are over, sobsob. Pretty much happy actually that i get to go to school again , but sad that i have to wake up early again , zzz -.-

As you can see , i don't have much to write right now. Too many thoughts in my head, screwing up everything. Sheeesh , when will this end ? :/

Sincerely,

Icky;

What made you hesitate ,

I woke up around 10am , early right ? I knoww , wow. I grabbed my phone and there was 3 texts , one of it was from Nad saying there was hockey practice. I called and found out it just ended , pfthh . What a bummer -.-

I did nothing but just laze around the house all day. FB-ing and msn-ing the whole day is pretty much lifeless to me, so yeay me for being lifeless for a day :D I had a nice talk with Sara this morning , she wanted to show me her braces. Say hello Sara the Braceface , bahaha :p Yeah she still looks pretty though , grr . Pretty much pissed at Taib for waking up at 5.30pm , he slept for more than 12hours , hooray for you -.- I got nothing else to tell about today. Booooooooooring much ! Oh oh ohhh , i was looking for my kittens just now , i walked towards the sliding door which i thought was opened , then suddenly i realized i actually banged the sliding door , i didn't see that coming . And yes my head hurts , till now. Ouch. Yeah yeah , laugh out loud pfthh -.-

Pretty much excited for tomorrow , can't wait (: I am now trying to eat some more , if i can that is. Toodles.

Sincerely,

Icky;

Put your loving hands out baby ,

I now realize watching a movie with my mom ain't that bad. She was like whispering to me " eh handsome " during the movie on Saturday . It cracked me up :) I love you mama♥

Today i met up with Poogieee (: It's been ages since we last met. I think it was before pmr , yeah exactly that long ! I forgot to tell him when i headed to UK and yes for the hundredth time , i'm sorry Faaris Fauziiii :( After meeting up with him , i went to meet Taib hihi. Around 4pm he sent me home , had a small fight in the car pfthh. But yeah whatever , iloveyouuuu. Taaaaaaib , abang gedang en ? *keningkening* HAHAHAHA. I can't wait for the double date on Wednesday . Me , Taib , Anis and Aweis :) Yeah , let's just hope nothing comes up to spoil the day, please oh please. I'm craving for snickers blendid , and this is pretty much a good time to meet up Ayang and Thariq , sobsob. Although i met them yesterday , bahaha.

Dear A , if you're reading this now, note to self that i'm still here no matter what. Remember our promise. Don't you worry, i'm not going anywhere. I got faith in you boy , i know you're strong :)

Okay gotta get ready for the bbq , thanks for wasting your time reading this hoho

Sincerely,
Icky;

Where shall i start

Honestly , i swear it has been a very packed month. I wish to update but i never really got the time. I have school in the morning till noon , training the whole evening , and homeworks at night, weekends i spend time with family. And here i am finally making myself NOT busy. I have a week of holiday, yes Happy Chinese New Year to all that's celebrating :)

What's going on? Well , you can definitely see that i'm no longer with A. Why ? I don't think it's something i should write here. Ask me if you want further details , but it depends in what mood i'm in. I wanted to at least be friends , but things aren't that easy after all. Hey , boy , i'll miss you , that's for sure. I hope you're happy with your decision okay :') Mm , i'm now with Taib. He's been great and yes i love him♥

I'm not really in the blogging mood. Will update more soon , later xxx