Too late ,

Today's highlight : basically , sadly , typical nothing -.-
Yeah it was an ordinary boring day. Teachers still making Zzz's , babbling about homeworks and yada yada , pfthh . I am proud to say i got only Sejarah and Geography notes to do and everything is settled. Then i can focus on Sivik folio , lab report , hafazan and PEKA (: yeay me !

okay whatever , goodnight.

New and Fresh

First i would like to say sorry to Mama for all the lies and all those times i ever cheat on you. I know i've been wrong and i know i've been bad. I know shouldn't have done all that and embarassed you in such ways. Second, to Papa for ever fighting back everything you said. You may accuse me and say stuffs about me that made me just think that i don't belong in this family. I regret my mistakes and i realize what i did wrong. I am trying to change, so please don't push me too far. Step by step, don't say i'm not trying hard enough. Nobody would push away that 8A's. And lastly, to siblings i could always count on. You've been struggling to understand me and make sure i won't turn out like any of you. I know i'm the one to blame. Life has been hard and studies has been very stressful, gimme time. I'm trying my best. Peeps and foes, call me geeky or call me freaky, but this is totally the new icky :) 8 A's is all i'm aiming for right now and yes there'll be unwanted changes. You know how it's hard for me to cope with changes, so don't mind me if i get too ego or emoshits. This is simply man, so fuck off -.- I miss going out anytime i want to, just laughing and crapping with people i wish to be with right now. Loved ones i miss the most at this very moment. Day and night i think back of all the times i was half free from this chaotic situation :/ But i guess i'll just have to sacrifice all that for this 6 months. On 16th October 2009 is the day i'll run out and chase back all those sweet memories or maybe create new ones *wink* Just wait for it baby, i'll be there. Just sacrifice a lil for family and most of all myself. It's for my own good. Wish me luck and yeah you'll be strong enough icky *sigh*

Did you ,

Did you forget, that I was even alive? Did you forget everything we ever had? Did you forget, about me? Did you regret ever standing by my side? Did you forget what we were feeling inside? Now I'm left to forget about us. But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong. Our love is like a song. You can't forget it. So now I guess, this is where we have to stand. Did you regret ever holding my hand? Never again, please don't forget. We had it all, we were just about to fall even more in love, than we were before. I won't forget, I won't forget about us. And at last all the pictures have been burned. And all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned. I won't forget, I won't forget us. But somewhere we went wrong, our love is like a song. But you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us :'(

Let's look back,

Fatin Izyan Mazlan♥
This girl up here is someone i can never forget, someone i can never stay mad at, someone i can always count on, someone that never forgets me no matter what, someone i've held on to for 3 years♥ Yes, she is my bestfriend. Yes , we have been very far apart these days. Yes, i love her to death. No matter how far we are, she'll still be the one that will always listen to me. 2006, the year we knew each other. Somewhere around June or July, we started chatting in MySpace. Got so close that we were very eager to meet each other. And so, December came. I was having a movie marathon with another friend of mine, gave her a call and she came. She was having a fever so we didn't talk much. But the next day we met again, at the so-called-coolest-lepak-spot in shah alam, MALL. Yeah it was very lame. Then we got closer and closer. Sleepovers, holiday in PD together, late night phone calls :) And then came 2007, she was there EARLY in the morning on my birthday. She gave me a kiss and a hug to make me feel special on a special day :) And she spent the whole day with me, and i appreciated that. And we went through so much more. Thick and thin, good or bad. We still held on to each other. We drifted away for quite some time, but yet she was still there for me ♥ 2007 ended pretty well and came 2008 :) Yeah, more adventures and more crimes. Cut school together, played in the rain, sleeover and took pictures in the middle of the road at 5am, hanged out at rasta till our eyes were half opened, and the library :) Yes, and now i'm ready for a fresh start for 2009. Are you up for it baby ? :D I love you lahhh , no matter what okay. I miss you loads, and i hope we both can make it through PMR. All the best for you, lots of love xxx

Life has been a bummer , and it's a bout time i stop and take a break :) Fuck off problems , fuck off problem makers . You're so not needed here.

Okay so yeah, this week has been very stressful. Teachers won't stop nagging about folios and presentations. Damn it, what do they think we are? Lifeless robots or something -.- homeworks, studying, folios and presentations are filling up my schedule. Not even a minute to just sit back and relax my mind :| Not only that, parents have been very hard to understand. Ask me to get the folio done fast , but when i do it they say i don't focus on studies. And when i study, they don't put that in mind. But when i watch tv or play guitar heros , they'll say i don't study :) Such understanding parents ay? They say i'm grounded. Can't go out with my brother nor my friends, but do they bring me out? NOPE :) They expect me to stay home and not watch tv , go online and play games at all. Oh seriously, no one else to blame if i end up getting a headache during exams, just them. *sigh* Whatever. Something else happened this week , but i don't think i wanna state it here. Let's just let me and them who i told knows what i mean :) But other then that, i think i've been fine. Just need a break i think, just a short break won't harm anyone. Right ? :/