Wednesday, September 29

Keep my heart beating

So this would be my first time blogging with my phone. Too lazy to get my ass up from this bed. Yeah, i'm a lazyass, so ?

I'm glad to say I got my girls back. A month passed and we're back together again. Alhamdulillah :) I've put my feet down, no more grudges. Ego should be pushed a side sometimes. Having haters is just about enough, hating would be too much. Agree?

On top all of that, I'm still a mess. Drama still chasing me, no matter how bad I run away. Hypocrites and twofaced are making me sick . They disgust me. Screw all of them. I'm better off without them.

Okay dah penat haha ttyl <3

Sunday, September 19

Truth be told ,

I've lived for 16 years and I think I've been through just about enough. Just enough to figure out all kinds of humanbeing on this planet. And I'm starting to get sick of it.

There's this kind that enjoys watching people live in misery which bugs the shit out of me. Some would even kill just so someone would breakdown and cry. Some enjoys spending hours to judge about someone's past. And some just looooove putting someone's dignity down to the ground. It somehow entertains them in some kind of way that I can never understand. You could just sit around with a bunch of friends talking about your OWN past , see if you can do that instead. I bet you can't either , theres just some parts of your life that you just wish you could erase. Everyone has 'em , so why in the world are you minding someone else's life? I don't think it affect you in anyway. I've been there , done that and somehow I feel so stupid that I just wish I could realize all this earlier.

My life myself is a wreck so why should I mess up others? It doesn't benefit me , not even a bit. I should just sit down quietly and mind my own problems. Better yet , I should just waste time with my friends other than sitting around useless people that just wants to take advantage.

There's another kind that just loves to take everyone for granted. Somehow they just don't know how to appreciate. Every single deed someone has done for them , they just take it so easy and don't even bother about the effort nor sincerity. Some sort of heartless creep , I would say. Why is it so hard for everyone to treat everyone equally? Don't like them , doesn't mean you have to ruin their life. Ignore them , don't let them exist in your life , that's all. Easy as that.

All I can say is , you might enjoy all that fucked up heartbreaking and life ruining act of yours for now , but how would like it if it was you who had to go through all that? I bet it would suck real bad. So why the fuck do it if you would for sure hate it if it happened to you. Don't be a hypocrite. I'm not that nice , I'm not that perfect. But last time I checked , this is my blog. Yeah, my blog. So screw your comments , this is what I have to say.

Sincerely,
Icky

Mentally and physically

What you did to me was unbelievably painful , although I kinda saw it coming but yeah somehow it poached my heart like way deep. Then again , why the hell am I bothering for such a typical douche ? Yes, I'm proud to say I'm over you. As much as I miss you forcing me to stay up and on the phone with you till dawn , I miss you reminding me you love me , I miss you making me feel secured , and what so ever you planned on doing to put me in such a shit hole , I still have to face the fact that I'll meet more boys like you who would have the exact same intention. Sure , I'll cry my heart out , feel like such an idiot and feeling so empty for a moment , but mark my words that I'll keep on standing. I won't fall and breakdown to pieces over something that happened to me more than just once.

Bottom line is , I'm stronger than you think I am.

I'm over you and hell yeah I'm on my way to better days

Time after time

It's been.... 2 months to be exact. Yes , 2 months of no blogging. I've been caught up with so many. As all you know , a month of Ramadhan has passed. And so did a week of Aidilfitri. Oh oh and also August Test :B

Ramadhan was okay , loads of obstacles I had to go through. LIKE A LOT (!) But Alhamdulillah I managed to go through all that , with some scars and bruises , mentally and physical. Seriously. And Raya was splendid! The whole family headed to Terengganu , and we spent every night at the beach and a day at the Sekayu Waterfalls. Don't mention the pictures , we had about 4 photographers in the family . Awesome right , I know HAHA I sound so lame. Blablabla exam was okay , I scored A for accounts woohooooo -.-

I'll write some more later , gotta go. Ttyl&hearts