Keep it up

Hi (:
I am fucking tired and my body is aching from head to toe , motherfuck :| I wish all this would hurry up and end fast. I practically slept all the way through Sejarah , although the teacher came and gave a shot to wake me up. Heh heh heh , sorry Pn Shuhana , it didn't work ;p Tomorrow's Acara Padang dayyyy , woohoo -.- Scared as fuck , i swear i am . Wish me luck people , hope to bring back more GOLD , hoyeahhh ! :D

Guess what ? I officially trust NO ONE (: Not even them i thought i could count on till my very last breath. Heck , i was fucking wrong. I don't mean a thing to them , they don't even give a shit about me (: So why the fuck should i give a shit about them? It's just a waste of my bloody time. Once they got a new circle , they push me out. I'm at the very edge and i think i'm giving my self up. I'm out and i don't want to be in it, why should i hurt myself ? I rather live my own life , build up a new circle or maybe just walk on my own , in that case i won't have to count on anyone (: Bestfriends ? Go die , i've got none. Soulmates ? Bullshit , they're all crap. BFF ? HAHA what the fuck is that all about . I'm sick and tired , i hate being pushed around and being treated like SHIITTTT (: Cause as far as i'm concerned , i'm human , just like you , you , you and YOU . Don't put my dignity on the ground , i ain't dirt. If my feelings is none of yr concerned , then i think you should just get away. I need space to build up a new life , without you in it. Thank you. Sesiapa terasa , heh sorry but heck as i said , I AM SICK AND TIRED. Enough with you're satisfaction , i need my relaxation. Have fun with your life and bestest best friends , and i'll live my own life :)

With love ,
Icky.

Bring it on ,

Hello miss know it all (:
I've been hearing so much about you. You are that famous huh ? Haha maybe cause you give away all yr shits to people , how nice of you . Seriously , keep yr shits cause people are done drowning in them. It's stinking up the place , and puhleaseeeee go get yr own life (: Kau tak yah nak batak sangat ah kan nak bagitau semua orang aku stalk comments kau , LIKE EARTH TO BRAIN aku online pon seminggu sekali , ingat rajin sangat ah aku nak stalk ? Ingat kau penting habis ah aku nak stalk ? Sorry , the number you have dialed is not in reach , PLEASE get out of my fucking sight you fucking plastic :) I've got my own life and unlike you , i take care of my own life and don't take note on other people's. So stop bragging that people are talking about you cause yr hot , while you know actually YOU'RE NOT (: How sad can you be ? Stop being such a sobber and go fuck yrself. TAK PAYAH NAK PERASAN SANGAT AH KAN. Setakat tetek je besar , muka je lawa , tapi perangai cam lahanat , kau boleh pegi mampos . Go jump of the 10th floor .

Speed and jump ,

Merah is hot to go , H O T T O GO ! Aummmm ! :D

Hoyeahhhh , today only those who participate in long distance run ( 1500m , 800m , 400m and 200m ) went to the stadium. I was in 4x400 and so i did go. I was nervous as shit cause i didn't think i could do it , i really thought i'll end up crawling to the last runner. But heck , i was hell wrong , we got the gold medal babyyyy :D I was really counting on Wawa to lead the race , it'll be easier for me to keep it up. And HELL YEAH SHE DID IT ! I was about to fall when i did the second curve , but then i heard them cheering and i couldn't let them down :) So i ran to Ira and passed her the stick and i fell down to the ground and i heard people talking and stuffs but i couldn't open my eyes. Bahaha , i was in pain and i really wanted to scream but i cooled down. I was really happy that i actually made it through , teheeee. Just waiting for long jump next week, wish me luck people ! :)

I've been really busy with sports , cheerleading and studies. Haven't been getting enough sleep though , mother fuck :| My body has been cramping and aching lately , and i just need a day , AT LEAST a day that i can stay home and stuff my self with all sorts of junk foods and sit back and just relax , pretty please ? Bahaha , people , guess what ? Esok birthday someone aku sayaaaaaaang sangat sangat (: *keningkening* You know who you are baby , i love you baby lion <3 Hey ho people , i gotta run. I need a shower

Nouns and Calculations

Yes , i've been a good girl lately. Staying home doing homework and barely going out that often. I'm fucking scared for PMR although it's months away. But trust me in a blink of an eye , HEY HO papers are hereeee :| Well what i'm trying to say is , Icky has been a good girl (: hahahaha . *winkwink*

Boleh tak kalau aku nak cakap aku rindu Tyka Aten Weyna Fifi Shela Virginie Anith and Fiqa :'( AtikahAliah, my one and only babylion , where are you ? :'( I've got so much to tell you but heck i can't seem to let it out to you anymore . Haihhhh. Aten dissapeared , heh till now i can't find her. Where ever she is , i think i can see that she's avoiding from me. So yeah , just to tell you that i miss you , hm if yr ever reading this lah kan. 2009 seem to be a disaster without you :'( Weyna bila nak sleepover lagi ? Cepat lah sikit birthday you kan , wat lek je lahhh :/ ATILIAAAAAA datang hari suka aku kalau tak aku putus kawan 3 tahun haaaa :( Nak buat perangai setan sama sama >:) hahahaha. Shela aku rindu kau :( Hmmmm nak lepak kt luar tingkap you tuuuu , hee . Virginie menghilang jugak , sobsob :( RINDU LAHHHH ! Anith dah busy dengan sekolah baru and environment baru , hm i wonder how you are. Fiqa padehal kt shah alam jugak en , tapi mcm seratus batu je jarak :/ Semua busy dengan hidup masing masing , sedih tahu tak , haihhhhh *menangis sorang sorang*

Oh and by the way , my baby's back here with me (: He's having his operation here , and yes he is right here beside me. HE IS BACK FOR GOOD , and i'm relieved. Tell the whole world that Farhan Idzmi Shah is BACKKKKK :D

Lift me up

I can go anyway , way i choose.
I can live anyhow , win or lose.
I can go anywhere for something new.
Anywhere , Anyhow , Anyway i choose (:
I can do anything , right or wrong.
I can talk anyhow to get along.
I don't care anyway, i'm always strong.
I'll say hello instead of saying so long.

These words i created for me to tell myself each time i'm about to fall. I read this to myself everynight before i go to bed, and get ready for another day. A new day , a new chapter (: I'm not going to give up now after this long journey. There's more to life other then giving up your own trust and hope. I've learned so much more, i think it's best if i go on. This is life, this is where i was born, this is where i stand and breathe. I'm going to go through it all (: