Bitterly addictive pleasure,

"Someone taught me that I have to move on like the rest of the world and to stop living on a bunch of yesterdays"

Love? So many to talk about this one not-so-simple yet common topic. Everyone has their own perception about love, and as for me , i would have to say it's some sort of addictive bitter pleasure. It gives you both pain and delight , a whole mixed up feeling you can ever imagine.

As wicked as it is , somehow for people it's still the best feeling ever. If and only if things go the way you expected. And if it goes the other way around , say hello to your new bestfriend , misery. You'll start to feel so low , so insecure and in a lot amount of pain that you can ever imagine. That's just how the way it goes.

Although as painful as it is , you'll still be needing it day by day. You'll always need that one person to love and that one person that could love you back. You know somehow someday you would get hurt again , but we would always push away all that and go for it. And just give it another shot. In the end , the same thing happens. Either one of us would get hurt and stray away from the crowd for quite some time. It even causes suicide , which is alternately idiotic but quite rare. I barely hear those kind of drama , but i bet there is. Humans these days just don't know the exact place to store the brain , sad , i know.

Some get hurt badly till they feel like never wanting to fall inlove ever again , which is such a lie. Not only you look like an idiot lying to yourself , you're also growing your fear instead of pushing it away. Me ? I wouldn't say i'll never fall in love again , i know i will , someday somehow someway. But maybe i've had too much thrill ride for now. Let's take a break , maybe a cup or two cups of tea would do the trick. And i know , once i'm back my feet , i'll meet another repulsive asshole that's just going to do the same shits like the rest did. But who knows if he's not ? Who would ever know what's at the end of the tunnel. If he shows he's obvious stupidity with 'heartbreaker' labelled on his forehead , escape while you can , honey.

Be wise , be ready , be strong. That's all in the ABC of growing up. Never fear of being inlove , never fear of never being loved; put aside your looks or whatever that is humans search for these days, you will eventually meet that one person who would just love you although how loud you burp in public or how bad you look when you wake up. There will always be someone who would always look at you and get butterflies in the tummy. Don't give up just because one silly crush turned you down , it's too soon to stop. Life is about moving on , keep on walking cause we need to find out the ending of this repulsive chaotic life. Love is indeed a strong feeling that would make you bleed or just give you the satisfaction you can ever ask for. Love is my very own addictive bitter pleasure.

♥Icky